This is shame.
Shame makes us feel like there is something wrong, or dark, or bad inside us.
When we are bullied, we feel shame.
What most people don't know, is that it is almost impossible for someone who is abused in this way to just "get over it".
The pain doesn't end when school is over, or when we switch jobs. We don't feel free when we leave the family member who was hurting us. It's just not how it works.
Many people feel the shame of bullying throughout their lives. But, the good news, is that it doesn't have to be this way.
Shame can be released and let go. We just need to start telling our stories.
First, you can start with someone you trust. Someone who listens well, and won't try to fix the problem.
Then, you can find a good therapist, or any health practitioner who can help release trauma. Consider energy healers like reiki practitioners or some osteopaths.
Once you can make sense of the trauma (by using your head) and releasing the feelings about it (cry, run, yell, do energy work), THEN you will have the ability to "get over it".
If you aren't sure which path is right for you, send me a PM and I can help guide you in the right direction. Because really, deep down, you know that there is nothing wrong with you, and, that you deserve so much love...